If I told you

I'm listening to a song which constantly shouts "If I told you I barely know what love is but if that's what this is I don't want to let it slip away".

That's a beautiful song from Darius Rucker. Listen here.

I feel so cold today. I'm wearing a strap neck green jacket. I have both my monitors on my desk and it feels so good! I'm in a good mood today. Last night was hellish. I had a blinding headache and I went to bed right after posting here. But I couldn't sleep. At the end I took a pill that helped.

I really need to reconsider my lifestyle. I'm not treating myself right and it will always come back like this. I am so sorry that I caused myself such a pain, mainly with not eating enough.

I still fear that throbbing headache might come back. But I'm too high to keep it down.

I finally got one shot for Mr. Pizza Eater. I realized I need to shout for the voice to be load enough! I recalled how I could raise my voice yesterday when I was talking to the 15th student who was at least 5 meters away and I realized I could do that! It's not perfect but it's not that bad. At least that's what I think. If he will think other way, I'm happy to quit, get fired or whatever! He treats me like I'm getting paid on a daily basis. That's fuy, he is so used to treat people from a powerful position. But he has no power over me. I just like to challenge myself and he is giving me that opportunity. So maybe this will work out after all.

He is a complicated person. I know I don't want to say no to him another time. He is so bad at taking it. I have to find another way. God! He himself is the biggest challenge here!

I really want to write more but I think it will be too much.

The db coection problem got solved today, and I did nothing! I don't know what was wrong with docker yesterday.

I think I'll go to sharif job fair tomorrow.

And, this seems just the begiing of a good day!

+ پیام دادم بهش بیا منو معاف کن از ویدئو گرفتن. زنگ زده میگه نابغه هم برامون یه سری ویدئو گرفت. مگه نمیخوای پیشرفت کنی؟! میگم کی میشه نابغه؟! بی خیال ما شو.

گوش نمیده. مجبورم کرد آخرش دو سری ویدئو براش فرستادم. حالا هفته دیگه زنگ میزنه میگه بقیه اش چی شد؟! نمیگه من به این بنده خدا نه فیدبکی دادم نه چیزی.

اصلا جالبه. واسه بیزنس خودش ارزش قائل نیست. من اگه بودم. یه بنده خدایی یه مدت واسه ویکی مطلب ترجمه می کرد اینقدر بهش گیر دادم که ول کرد رفت! حالا نه به بدقلقی من نه به بی خیالی اون. نمیدونم با این اخلاقش تا الان چه جوری کارش هنوز می چرخه. شاید من تفکرم یک ایراد بنیادی داره...!